Where My Dogs At?

The Internet in a Rig

Okay, so it's late, and I should be in bed. I just got back from a candlelight meeting recently. Fantastic bunch of people. I always enjoy the recovery in that group, and I always grow a lot. I've gotta slow down, though, on the Internet stuff. That's it.

Neurotic at 12:53am. Who's the most underrated actor ever?

We want to know who you believe is the most underrated actor ever. Mine? You'll have to wait and see.

Higher What?

i need to say that i believe others believe, and for now that's all i need. and, i try real hard to pray and trust, but that nagging fucking voice comes up that says "this is ridiculous. you're a smart dude, why the hell are you talking to nothing?" i know that it's nothing more than my disease trying to take me back out to the wonderful life of losing everything and being miserable, but it's still there. honestly, i can say that i don't want it there. some days, i just want it to go away. man, i've got a long way to go. somedays, i wonder if i'll ever make it. but, i got to be a part OF someone celebrating 4 years last night and 18 months. it was amazing, and, on a deep, level, i knew-- even if only for a moment-- that everything was going to be alright. that all i have to do today is believe that they believe....

--metro

i'm crazy, i'm not crazy....

so, yesterday my ex hung up on me b/c i said no to her moving to nashville with my son. this was not even 24 hours ago. now, she's calling me and being sweet as molasses. what the hell? i just don't get her. i know. i know. i don't have to get her. that's not my job. still fucks with me. today, is my 5 month anniversary, celebrated unofficially. yippy for me. i've also developed several hair-brain schemes to get pimp rich. that's me. always thinking. you see, that's what you have to do. you have to use your mind to come up with an orginal idea and make a million dollars. . . like the pet rock.

i'm outty. got some recovery to get. nuff said. my mind refuses to focus.