Just For Today: A Perfect Measurement of Where I Am

It never fails, and yet I'm still often amazed. I read the Just For Today meditation and it describes exactly where I am at. Today was no different. I skipped one of my home group meetings (we have 5 a week) because I was asked to give a training presentation at work. I found out about it at the last minute, and I'm up for a new position as a Training Specialist. I couldn't pass up this opportunity. But, I also knew that I couldn't go to a meeting and have time to go over the 3 hour presentation. So, I skipped the meeting. I missed Saturday's meeting because I went to a movie (Grindhouse - Quentin = big waste of time) with a bunch of people in recovery. I didn't go Sunday because I was tired. Hmmm. Let's see the Just for Today said:

We have to work late. We're tired. There's a good show at the theater tonight. And all of a sudden, we notice that we haven't called our sponsor, been to a meeting, spoken to a newcomer, or even talked to God in quite a while.

That sounds awfully familiar. So, meeting tonight. Period. I'm so grateful for the gifts I have in my life today, but I HAVE to remember that they'll all be gone in a blink if I use. In fact, with everything in my life all I have to add is "unless I use." I have a great job. . . unless I use. I have a great relationship with my son. . . unless I use. I'm productive and happy for the most part. . . unless I use. You get the picture. So, I think, today, I will NOT use no matter what.